i WANT it now . . . why not get it later?

Hey everyone sorry i havent blogged in a while but life gets crazy!
So i was IM my guy friend about some girl problems he was having and he just seemed so impatient and then he said something that triggered a thought in my mind. Guys are so impatient , if there talking to a girl and they like her they want to get things done now. They would rather date and get to know each other a long the way? Im sorry am i missing something? That makes no scene why would i date you if i know nothing about you? So what if we date and i get to know you then i dont like who you are then dating was pointless am i rite? There so quick to want things now now now! Why cant they sit and enjoy getting to know each other live the moment instead of passing it by. Some things are worth waiting for. Instead of going through all these dead end relationships going no were, you could have a relationship thats fun and full of life something actually putting your time and effort into it could be something real the way a relationship is suppose to be. Call me old school but i bet it would last longer. You dont count backwards so why do relationships that way.
xoxo

ketch up and grow up

(im so sorry it has been soooo long)
ketch up part 1:
So i was just sitting here thinking about how im going to do high school this year so different! Im going to be nice to everyone even people i dont know im going to flash everyone a smile. One thing I really wanna challenge myself to do this yr is not be apart of gossip, like i know coming from a girl that sounds crazy but it like seriously can take over your life. I dont wanna be apart of that i dont wanna judge anyone or talk about them because i have no idea what there going threw! Plus i know if someone was talking about me i would feel so sad and crappy about myself. I dont wanna be a reason someone does not wanna go to school. I just want to have such a positive happy Ora about myself. Im going to be a upperclass men this year so i want to be like leader not the follower! This year i will learn to love myself , i will be sure to let people know im not a label or my body! I am a divine daughter of God! I want to have so much confidence this year because i know people can tell when you have that.

ketch up part 2:
So as i am growing up i am learning what i look for in a guy its totally changing. Before it just use to be is he hot and is he tall! ahah) Now when i think of what i want in a guy i think: would be be a good father a good husband, would he be able to support a family. Does he have the desire to serve a mission. Is he looking at my beauty not my booty! Then i start to think the normal stuff like he has nice teeth. Im sorry girls but im such a sucker for sparkling straight white teeth haha but can you blame me! Its so strange that as im getting older im really starting to think about what i want in life what i want in a husband and what i see in a boy. One big change i notice i have made when i see a boy who is soo attractive not only on the outside but inside i call him handsome because to me that means something when you say omg hes so hot its like your just calling him a piece of meat lol. Sorry this on was not really advice it was just sharing my thoughts with you guys.
xoxo virtuous girl

The game of LIFE

One rule i learned that will always take you far in the game of life is risks*. Sometimes with these risks you hit or miss its a 50 50 chance it will work out. If you never take risks you will never know what its like to step out your comfort t zone, You have to bust out your shell once and a while. So why not do it when your young and in high school. Yes I KNOW almost every guy in highschool is WIENNIE but if you don't take your risks on a WIENNIE you will never know what its like to have a New York style HOT DOG lol! I took a risk on a boy a couple days ago and i asked him if he wanted to hang out sometime. Yes i was super scared but when i sent that message it felt sooo good even if he dosent reply im so proud of my self for taking chance i never in a million yrs thought i could take a chance like that. If he dose not reply oh well but if he dose i am i own idol haha :) because i am finally growing up! I just really hit me that if i dont take a stand for what i want then it will never happen or it will be such a slower process! If i want something i need to be a go getter i cant depend on anyone but me. I dont know how long i will be on this earth but i want to make sure i have no regrets and i can say i did that and tried because as girls we can only grow from an experiences and build on that heart break. I have just started my game of life and i have a long way before i end it i want to make sure that my life has adventure and excitement i wanna live life and do me no one but me because being me for once in my life feels so good and i grabbing that feeling and holding on
xoxo virtuous girl

Just be up front!

(first off im sorry i have not blogged in a while i have been doing other things so i promise i will get back on track)
So i was talking to my friend and she says "what do i do this guy is so boring i wanna end the convo but i don't wanna be rude! what do i do? So i started to give her all these thing to say then she's like that's good but i wanna stay online so he would know im lying! Then it hit me she is completely rite that is LYING and that's so rude! So im sitting here thinking like Everyone is put in this place one way or another... So instead of lying and making the situation way more complicated then it needs to be just be STRAIGHT FORWARD! Just say" Hey i bet your a really good guy but im just not looking for anything more then a friend ship, so if you cant respect that or your mad im sorry but i would rather be honest then lead you on and then brake it off so im really sorry but we can remain friends." You know like as bad as you will feel after saying it i bet the guy will thank you for being so honest and not sugar coating it. Some of my friends that read this know about the guy i went on a date on and rite now we are standing on a rocky boat! To be honest i wish he would just be honest with me he dose not even reply to my text anymore but that's okay his loss i just wanna be friends and little dose he know i can take the heat that's why im in the kitchen! he can be up front but whatever! Bottom line is if you just keep it 100 and stay up front the situation will be less complicated and everyone will be happy and if he's not happy at that moment he will respect you in the end for looking out for him and yourself so just be up front the result is so worth it!
xoxo virtuous girl

friends with good morals

Good friends really do have an amazing effect in your life! The kinda friends that up lift up and share the same morals. It really is nice to have friends like that because if you share the same morals/religion as them it makes things so much better. I know i got closer to ppl who share the same morals as i do and i am so happy i did because i can truly be myself i dont have to worry about being judged or anything it is such a nice feeling! When im with them i feel so happy and at peace i feel like i dont have to be anyone but myself. I just wish i went to school with some of them. when i went to girls camp i prayed that i would find more people who shared my morals and i prayed that i could have more friends like that and im so thankful my prayer got answered! Just when you think that friends dont have an effect they truly do because you just wanna fit in but with the good kind of friends friends you want you fit in just fine :) The way i see it your friends are like your older siblings in a way you look up to them they look up to you and i wanna look up to someone who shares the same morals as i do

xoxo virtuous girls

Take the shot

This blog is for a friend)

I would like to start off by saying that you can not compare any of those girls to you because they are not you , you are you. You have to learn to like yourself or no one will be able to get close to you (boywise) If this boy is interested in you and you are interested in him then you should go for it. How can you think of the bad the good hasn't even happen yet! Maybe this guy likes you because your different and you have a great personality. If he sparked interest in you then that means there was something different and he likes it! Your young run with it, if it dose not work out and you fall just know your bffs will be there to pick yo up. Remember you have to date frogs to find your prince. If you dont date any frogs then you will never know what its like you wont know how to find your prince and the frogs tell u what qualities you do and don't want. You can't just assume he would dump you for someone else maybe to him looks dont matter, dont make assumptions trust me they get you into trouble. I think that if you dont take a chance you will always wish you did. GO FOR IT! BE YOU AND IT WILL ALL WORK OUT! If he cant like you for you then hes not worth it because your not a label your you and thats all you should try to be! Take the shot if you slam dunk it great if you miss then still great at least you can walk away knowing you tried and your awesome for that! Don't find someone new because your scared if you dont do it now you never will; when the next guy comes you will get to this point and then bam sike your self out! Start here rite now! If i didnt help message me and i will keep trying
xoxo virtuous girl

what is love?

I ask myself that question all the time. I sit here and think about what it would be like to be in love. I want to know what it would be like the skip a beat with out him but have my heart beat to fast when im with him. The way i see it girls are like adomie penguins; adomie penguins spend there whole life looking for the one and when they find them they just know... i want that to happen for me. I want my first kiss to be like the whole room stops and everything is silent but rite and i know and he knows we were suppose to kiss each other and a kiss never felt so rite. I want my knees to get weak and my heart to pound and i wanna feel like that kiss was suppose to be for him. ( sorry if im lame but i dont just want to give my first kiss to anyone i wanna give it to thee one) I wonder if love was ment for everyone and if so why do ppl fall out of love , what triggers the mind to just loose attraction to the one you once loved i dont understand that? if love is such a serious and strong thing how can those feelings just go away? When i find the one or someone whos pretty close i want him to love me because im Kendall because im not a label because i can be myself because i can wear sweat pants with no make up and a messy bun and he will still think im beautiful because i am not my body i want him to love me simple because im Kendall- smart , fun, a daughter of god, beautiful, outgoing, loves church ect. I dont want to rush into love because i dont want to waist it on someone who thought it was a week long thing i know i have to date frogs in order to find my prince and i all so know a couple of toads will come a long but i dont have* to date those ones haha! Is love not being able to stand being with him but die when your a part? Is there different levels of love? i hate that these questions lie in the land of kendall unanswered. But im still young and i still have time to discover the answer.... what is love?
xoxo virtuous girl